I am writing this letter for you and the whole world to know how lucky I am to be your wife. I know I'm not that vocal about my feelings. but I'm sure you know how hard it is for me to say how I feel. although this is not the first time I have written you a letter. but still I want everyone to know na love do exist. My relationship may not be as perfect and fairytale like but its perfect for me. we may have a lot of flaws and shortcomings but I can honestly say I'm happy and I can never ask for a better partner. I certainly know I’m not an easy person in fact I’m a very difficult one most people will have trouble understanding my beliefs or my ways in life. But funny how my husband was able to keep up and live with all of it. You see my husband and I are very different. We are very opposite in so many ways, but still we manage to understand each others differences. Although there are a few disagreement and misunderstanding we still choose to understand and respect each others judgement and notions. I am not the submissive kind of wife, my husband knows that pretty well… He knows I hate rules and restrictions I tend to be more rebellious when restrained I do things my way. he knows I don’t sugar coat words. He can never make me do things or say things if I don’t want to. I never do stuff to please him If i do it, its because I want to and I choose to. I always wanted equality, I believe that men and women are created equal or at-least that’s what I wanted it to be. Although I know how tendentious people and our society. I’m not the classic kind of wife who tend to my husbands everyday needs in fact I literally don’t do regular housewife stuff. People say if you don’t cook, wash dishes, do laundry, make coffee, clean the house your husband will eventually leave you, well i do not agree. that’s not true! I’m his partner not his maid. I will not do those things just to say I’m a good wife or to prove i love him… that beliefs is too old and its irrelevant. I told you I’m a difficult person. People may judge and question my ways and means but It doesn’t matter. I’ll do things coz I want to not because I have to satisfy someone or anyone . My decisions are base on my own gratification not others satisfactions. I always wanted to have a say in everything and a power to decide Which my husband respected and allow me to do so in our 12 years of being together. My marriage and relationship with my husband was not so perfect and heavenly. During those years together we had our down fall as well but I’m happy to say that we were able and manage to move onward. Our relationship may have imperfections and glitches. We may not even be the normal couple you will usually imagine simply because you will usually see us arguing well I’m a very argumentative person so basically I contradict on almost everything he say. We don’t celebrate month saries or anniversaries, we don’t have silly pet names, like what i said, we argue a lot, we do stuff separately, we both don’t like being bothered when we are both doing our “thing”, we like different stuff, we have different set of friends, we have a lot of disagreements but I know that we love each other so much. I value him and he value me. We may both have flaws and drawback but we do acknowledge and understand each others differences. He never forces me to do things for him. He may never understand and yes he often complain with my excessive buying and my unreasonably inclination with my hair and hair products still he let me buy the things I want and somehow even buy those things for me just to see me smile. He lets me have my “me time” and allow me to have my “space” if I want to. Even lets me win with those stupid games and bets we play esp if i ask him to give way. prolly he is not even as sweet as those normal men who give flowers because just like me he also thinks buying expensive flowers is stupid and I guess his jokes are not even that hilarious and yeah he probably has a lot of imperfection like me but who said I want perfect. I don’t even like Prince Charming. I don’t even want someone who is on my sleeve 24/7. I want someone who can keep up with my temperament. Someone who will not ask me to change or ask me to give up what i want for his sake. someone who will not just accept who i am but acknowledge me instead for all my flaws and weaknesses, someone who has imperfection but real like me. Im happy i was able to find it with my husband. I may have a few crushes on the side but I will never see myself not married and not with my husband. I’m so glad to be Mrs. Jonathan Luzon. Papa I love you so much. you will always have my back. I will never get tired of you. thank you for loving me, for loving the people I love, for being a good father, a good friend, a playmate, my personal assistant, my driver, my personal shopper and for simply being you. remember my story about candles sabi ko sayo madalas ako mag tirik ng kandila pag nag pupunta ako sa church, you ask me before kung para saan yun I remember telling you its for my hidden wishes. well guess GOD really gave me you!
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